Why Go to Conferences?

I’ve been known to attend a few conferences in my day. A couple of friends have a variety of nicknames for that – “conference junky”, “gathering groupie”, “event addict” and “brilliant mind” (no one remembers saying the last one but I’m pretty sure it was said or thought – whatever). Truth is, I do try to attend live events as time and responsibility allow. Some of these events are provided for by our church and a number of them, I pay out of my own pocket. Fortunately most lectures are free and now even more events are becoming free. Like the Transform East Coast Gathering that will be in DC May 1 and 2 or Lusanne’s 12 Conversations that will be in NYC this Thursday. (There are other dates and other cities, you should check them out).

I worked with someone who explained to me that attending conferences was “just part of the fake show of everything, even in the church ministry world.” He continued, “You go, tell everybody how big your church is, they tell you that their church is bigger, they say what exciting things God is doing and then you need to keep up so you exaggerate about how exciting your ministry is … I stopped going to these stupid things.” While we all know there is truth in that (regardless of vocation), I am so glad I did not heed the advice. It could be because I attend better events ;-)

I’ll admit that I get awestruck. Yes, I did tweet that I shared an elevator with Dallas Willard (and if I get my picture taken with NT Wright again, I’ll show that off too. He’s like the Derek Jeter of theology you know). People chase down actors, rock stars, and various celebrities, I get excited over Bible nerds – I’m comfortable with that. Truth is, most of these people are really down to earth. I have found pastors of mid-size churches (not ours, he’s awesome) to carry bigger egos than some of these men and women who speak to thousands and have best selling books. But that’s another story.

For me, I want to listen to speakers, pastors, writers, theologians, and various other personalties. Some of these minds are discussing some of the most important topics of the day. Some of them are engaged in some cutting edge ideas and contexts. Some of their words have been life-changing. I will never forget listening to Mike Yaconelli say, “You always get what you get when you do what you always do.” It’ not because he passed away three days after I heard him say that, I wrote that down the second after he said it. I’ll also never forget some of moments on our seminary retreats with Andy Crouch, Larry Walker and Brian McLaren. Then there are personal encounters that won’t be mentioned because of name-dropping is a sin in these parts ;-) But there is something incredible when someone you admire gives you advice regarding your ministry and you leave the conversation knowing there was a very real possibility that they really cared about you and what they told you.

Further, I want to gather with like-minded people and hear their stories, share mine, and leave encouraged, inspired, and maybe even encourage someone else (dare I say). Though I certainly know there can be a snobbiness and a consumer mentality at some of these gatherings, you also get to bump into some truly amazing people. It’s hard to keep in touch with people and build life-long relationships (although Facebook has made things easier), but for me, it’s so good to sit next to a fellow youth pastor who believes in the importance of communicating good theology to teenagers. It’s good to sit next to another pastor that understands that our self-absorption is in part, contributing to some terrible global crisis.

Anyway, conferences, lectures, and other gatherings have proven to be a very good thing for my soul, marriage and family, and ministry. I look forward to future gatherings and maybe even meeting you there. It’s not become a normal occurrence to say or be told, “Hey, I follow you on Twitter…”

Next for me is the NT Wright Conference in Wheaton and Q in Chicago. Aside from connecting in O’Hare, I’ve never been to the great land of Sufjan (Come on Feel the IlliNoise!).  This month, I’ll be there twice. Looking forward to it.

Monday Brief – 4.10.10

What Was Enjoyable –
– Easter. Love its meaning, enjoy its celebration and am moved by the Lent preparation leading up to it. In a world marred by tragedy, evil, sin, despair, the meaning of Easter changes everything.
– Not as theologically and metaphysically profound but fun for me – our Florida vacation! Lol – It was great to spend a few days visiting with Susan’s family and catching up with other relatives and friends. There’s a lot I like about the area we get to live but it’s always good to be out of the zip code. Life always looks different.
– Really proud of my wife and boys. Grateful for such a fantastic family (Most of the time i am but wrestling with a two year old and stressing the importance of airplane safety by being buckled in during take-off and landings gets a bit frustrating. But it’s better than being annoyed by other people’s kids (Just kidding, “other people” ;-)
– Also grateful that my niece Lina was dedicated yesterday. My parents and brother got to fly out and be with my sister and brother-in-law.

What’s Going on in Seminary –
– While in FL, I realized again that this Mdiv is finished in June. Only a few papers and books left. Granted a lot is due tomorrow (a paper, a journal and a few chapters left in Andy Crouch’s excellent book, Culture Making) but the end of the tunnel is near. It’s been a really great experience but really looking forward to the break. Also, I’ve been very grateful for the support of my family and church.
– This last class has been on understanding culture. It’s been one of my favorites of the program.

What’ I’ve Been Reading –
Justification by NT Wright. And I just won a copy from Englewood Books.
Culture Marking by Andy Crouch – brilliant. I read most of it last year, and took it slower last week, and it’s absolutely fantastic.
Doing Local Theology by Clemens Sedmak. Excellent also. I really liked it – wanted to underline the whole thing. Working on my response paper. I liked it but there’s something that kept bugging me as I read. Ever read a book that you like but can’t place your finger on what is bothering you about it? Well until I can put my finger on it, my response paper is a bit boring.

What I’ve Been Watching –
LOST. As I saw on numerous Tweets, “I don’t know what’s going on but I like it.”
Missed 24 last week, but I’m pretty sure the opening seconds will bring me up to speed. Oh and I just saw that Simpsons episode that was like 24. Where Lisa is Chole, Bart is Jack and Homer is …, well he’s Homer.

What I Have Been Listening to –
Spoon’s Transference – very good, as you would expect Spoon to be.
Broken Bells – Everyone’s right – it’s excellent.
Just started Denison Witmer’s Carry the Weight. I like his voice, I like his poetry, I’m going to keep listening.
U2’s Artificial Horizon – It’s their technotronic versions to recent hits like City of Blinding Lights, Magnificent, if God Will Send His Angels … I like it, it’s fun but back when No Line on the Horizon was first released, I thought the followup album that they mentioned was going to be more B-sides then the “Move This” versions of their stadium anthems.
And a mix one of my friends made. I have no idea what’s on it. I think most of it is new except for a song by Dakota Motor Company (anyone remember them?).
The music is so indie that Shazam and SoundHound do not work. Well, I like tracks 6, 9, 13 … (I know you are reading brother, thanks again).
Finally finished Jim Belcher’s Deep Church. Enjoyed it. May one day blog about it but until then, I think it’s the fairest non-emergent book there is. For those who have questions/concerns about emerging church/emergent/etc, don’t bother with Why We’re Not Emergent …. If you want to try to understand, Belcher does a good job.
Homebrewed Christianity podcast when I’m feeling up for it.
The Relevant Magazine podcast when I’m in the mood for a laugh.

What’s Going on in Youth Ministry –
– I am really pleased that we are have 17 students signed up to go to New Orleans this summer. We’re working with the Gathering Church (which is actually in Chalmatte, St. Bernard Parish) and people we really miss like our friends Aaron and Lucas.
– Had a really good series baed on LifeChurch’s Practical Atheist. Good stuff, especially their media. You get it, customize/personalize your lesson, add your stories, illustrations – it saves a lot of time – thanks LifeChurch.
– Our Invisible Children Benefit concert that was cancelled because of snow is being held next weekend. We are all looking forward to it.

What’s Going on at the Montvale Church –
– We had a wonderful Easter week. I thought Sam preached a very excellent message and I was really blessed by the Emmaus Worshp Team. Homeboy Glenn and crew are so good – so good.
– We have had these monthly fellowship luncheons for the purpose of providing a space for newer people to connect and create further community amongst us. A wonderful family had this on their heart and they recruited other wonderful people to help and here we are. The ideas come but the execution of them is where the commitment and labor is and we as a church are blessed. We also had a missionary family that our church supports share during this time. They are a young couple serving in the United Kingdom and I’m a fan of what they do. I love it when they come back and share with us.
– Our next Second Mile Service is next Saturday, April 24th. Pastor Mark Allen from Pascack Bible Church is bringing the heat! Well, he’s not fire and brimstone but I’m sure it will be insightful and Spirit-led. More info here.

What I Am Looking Forward to –
NT Wright Conference in Wheaton this week! So excited. I’m going with a few friends and a NT Wright expert AND one of our best professors, Derek Cooper should be helpful as well ;-)
Also, looking forward in seeing a couple of our students who attend Wheaton.
Q Conference.
Staying home in May til our Vietnam/Cambodia Seminary trip.

You Heard It Here Second Last – Favorite Recent Links

If you have been following this blog for a while you know I used to this fairly regularly. While the Twitter culture almost makes posts like these obsolete, there are still some wonderful people who as one person told me, “not on the Twitter”. Well, rotary phone users, fear not, these are some excellent links I’ve read, bookmarked and wish to share.

First off is a Christianity Today article from Daniel Kirk, author of Romans Unlocked, professor at Fuller Seminary in North California, husband, father and all around good guy. He blogs daily at www.jrdkirk.com. His piece on the resurrection was fantastic and here’s the first paragraph –

In the spring of my senior year in college, I was deeply immersed in the rhythms of Christian life. I was a leader in InterVarsity, participated regularly in a Bible study with other seminary-bound friends, set my Sundays aside for worship and rest, and read more than my fair share of extracurricular Christian books. As Easter approached, I began rehearsing the importance of Jesus’ resurrection. I knew that for Paul and the other New Testament writers, there could be no Christianity without it. Yet one day as I was walking back to my dorm, it dawned on me that the gospel as I understood it had no need for Jesus to be raised from the dead.

More here.

Because this blog is read by some alleged Piper fans and in the event that you didn’t get the Desiring God text message a couple weeks back – Dr. Piper is taking a seventh month leave. He wrote a classy blog post that expressed he needs the leave because “I see several species of pride in my soul that, while they may not rise to the level of disqualifying me for ministry, grieve me, and have taken a toll on my relationship with Noël and others who are dear to me…” Again, it’s a classy move, all of us can gain somethhing from it. My previous post had a Doug Pagitt’s words of encouragement and call to prayer. If you don’t know the context, you should know that while they are not the best of friends (to say it least), they are brothers in Christ, and live in the Minneapolis area. If you missed it, you can check it out here.

It’s hard to really know who reads this blog, I’ll keep refining these posts. I think the first post should interest all Christians and the second for the “Pipettes”.

Reading Wright's Justification & Thinking About Piper From Sunny Florida

My family and I are on a sorta vacation this week in Florida. My in-laws living here is a good thing as it’s guilt-free time away. Though Susan has visited recently, it’s my first trip to the Sunshine State in two years. On the plane I mentioned to Susan the last time I flew to FL (to adopt Nathan), we didn’t have any children, this time, we are flying down with two. As we all know a lot can change in two years. Anyway, it’s a sorta-vacation because I have a lot of school work and a bit of church work to do but it’s nice to be here.

I’ve got a couple books to read. I started re-reading Justification because I really want to absorb this huge discussion. This summer, I intend on reading Piper’s The Future of Justification: A Response to NT Wright.. Anyway my second time through, I have become really enamored by the good Bishop of Durham and I am truly excited about listening to him and the many fine minds at Wheaton in two weeks. Further, I am really grateful for the fellas that I will be traveling with. This Florida air and the sounds of baby boys has me all nostalgic.

As I have been reading, I have had a couple of thoughts floating in my head. Among them, we evangelicals have made our theology too narrow. It may turn out that NT Wright is wrong (afterall he already jokingly admits that he knows he’s wrong about 20% of everything, he just doesn’t know which part it is. What if it’s the 20 that governs the 80? Yep, that adds up to being completely wrong. It’s actually hard to do that but I digress). The real thought I have is so much of my evangelical community, throughout my upbringing to my undergrad years has seemed to dismiss too many things as “liberal”. The Aramaic in Daniel written (or even edited) in the 2nd century – liberal. NRSV – liberal, eschatology that challenges dispensationalism – liberal, liberal, liberal.

I am aware that there are indeed more formal arguments made against those aforementioned topics in academic circles but they rarely trickle down to local evangelical churches. Generally, our congregations get the conclusion (“Be careful, that’s dangerous theology; it’s liberal”). We need to work on that, not to please NT Wright, not to please “the liberals” but to be informed, Biblically faithful, Spirit-led followers of Jesus who desire to learn and practice the calling and mission the Father has called His children to be. I mean, if you are in to that sort of thing.

On a smaller note but important relationally, I find myself really feeling for John Piper. Over the years I have gone from great admiration to him, to great concern with his fight with cancer, to joy with his remission, to frustration with his second wave on life, to and outright dismissing certain soundbytes. I mean for a while I was pretty sure Pat Robertson hacked into his twitter account. Don’t put it past Robertson, the dude can leg press a ton!, he can hack into Twitter ;-) All this left me having this paradoxical position of appreciating some of his past work but at best, tolerating his current positions out of Christian respect (another virtue of the postmodern posture btw).

But his recent announcement about taking an 8 month leave has moved me. From where I sit (and I’m just a youth pastor from Jersey), this seems quite normal to how we Christian conservatives operate. Fight a big fight, take a leave. Or retire from the organization, but have a personal ministry or resign from Focus on the Family but still be on the radio show, resign from that, take a break and now want two million dollars for your own show separate from the organization that granted, you founded and may have been forced out of, but now left. I know this sounds like an emergent version of Jim Rome Is Burning and that I began the paragraph talking about Piper, not Dobson, but you have to admit, there is a pattern here.

Two humble suggestions from the lowly youth pastor with the beautiful wife and the two adorable little boys who are all soaking in the Florida rays. As the next generation conservatives (post-conservative?), let’s stop the radio shows whose overarching theme is, “America is being taken away from you! And now they are coming after your families! And let’s stop with the books that leave people saying, “The liberal anglican guy who arrogantly uses initials for his name is trying to take away your justification … and your rapture! (Now we’ll be stuck here forever!).” Let’s stop imitating the rhythm of a boxer’s life who trains, fights the big bout, then takes a leave to heal in victory or defeat. Rather, let’s invite the alleged liberal over for tea. Let’s invite the atheist for lunch. I mean is it too much to ask for Dobson to invite Howard Sterns over? Too unrealistic? Even Jerry Falwell invited Larry Flynt over after the infamous Campari ad in Hustler Magazine that said his first sexual encounter was with his mom in an outhouse. (Yes, I did learn a few things at Liberty).

While Piper and Wright’s discussion has tried to be polite, it seems to have taken a toll on both men. The bishop writes with an exhausted tone (“How many times do I have to say this?”) while the Reformed Pastor takes a leave “I was just trying to guard the sheep.” The truth is, while I feel that Wright is getting the better of the exchanges, I feel for Piper and his family and I wish his body and soul rest from the Lord, my prayers are with him – I mean that seriously. But we need to find better ways of communicating our differences in the future. By the way, I thought Doug Pagit wrote a nice piece concerning Piper’s leave.

Well, I have written quite enough but marrying a FL girl was a real bright move on my part.
Grace and peace friends.

Forgive Us Father, (because we still don't know what we're doing) – A humble Good Friday Reflection

Betrayed, abandoned, ridiculed, beaten, stripped naked and humiliated in every possible way, Jesus asks God the Father to forgive. “Forgive them, for they know not what they do.” (Luke 23:34).

For years, I felt a promise attached to Jesus’ words. Almost as if he said, “They don’t know what they’re doing now. But they will, so let’s be patient.” or something. Looking at it today, it seems appropriate that we continue to ask the Lord to forgive us because we still do not know what to do and never will be fully realize.  This is not to give us excuse, but humility instead.

Though I am very concerned with many global crises (and this blog reflects that), I am also very concerned with the status of our souls – our pride specifically. (I know my pride is worse than yours ;-) Our pride leads us to our self-indulgence, our entitlement, and our constant need for gratification. Traditionally, we use the term “sin” but that’s a tricky word to be discussed on another day but its use seems quite appropriate on Good Friday.

When reflecting on Good Friday, you come to the conclusion that it really is the scariest day of the year. A day that observes God bleeding, groaning from thirst, dying. What kind of a “god” dies?   And what’s so good about it?  We call it “Good” not out of enthusiastic glee of divine suffering, but good because through this work, God offers forgiveness, redemption, and love for all.

Perhaps that’s one of the most beautiful features – this forgiveness is for all. NT Wright offers a few words on the private and public nature of the Holy Week events:

“That rhythm of private and public is what we find, sharply and starkly, in the events of Maundy Thursday and Good Friday. Today, Jesus takes the disciples into a private room, and the door is shut. Nobody else knows what’s going on. But the words he says there in private, and still more the small but earth-shattering actions he performs, will turn within twenty-four hours into the most ghastly and shocking display of God in public: God shamed and mocked, God beaten up and humiliated, God stripped naked and hung up to die. You can’t get more public than crucifixion by the main west road out of Jerusalem. And, as in fact you can observe throughout Jesus’ ministry, you need that rhythm of private and public at every stage. The private without the public becomes gnosticism, escapism, a safe and narcissistic spirituality. But the public without the private becomes political posturing, meaningless gestures, catching the eye without engaging the heart. We need both; and the events through which we live today enable us to inhabit both, and be strengthened thereby for the ministries both private and public to which we are called.

And the events of Good Friday tells us something we urgently need to know about doing God in public. If it is the true God we are talking about – the God we see and know in Jesus Christ and him crucified – then we should expect that following him, speaking for him, and living out the life of his spirit, will sometimes make the crowds shout ‘Hosanna!’ and sometimes make them shout ‘Crucify!’
You can read the rest here.

Just like the many who shouted for his death did not understand, I know my ignorance and pride has blinded me as well. Truly, I am humbled by the One who forgave his executioners and the One who still offers forgiveness today.

Reflecting on April Fool's and Maundy Thursday

Some people wake up this day each year instinctively knowing that it’s April Fool’s. Now a good prank is a good prank and should be enjoyed by all but we all know some people that take this day a bit too seriously. In fact, they could be in coma but would break back into the realm of consciousness because they have a prank they have been preparing all year to execute. For those people, today is their Christmas, it is their Easter, it is their Holy Day. Happy April Fool’s to you.

For others, this is a day to tolerate those who take April Fool’s too seriously. They walk through the day with a suspended enthusiasm knowing that the mysterious box that was shipped to their home last month was probably some type of slime or goo from an old Nickeloldian show (like “You Can’t Do That on Television”. Which was awesome … when I was 7).

But more importantly, to others, today is Maundy Thursday. Which is very confusing to many of my fellow evangelical friends, because when said aloud (“Monday-Thursday – what God wants another Monday? Oh come on.”) sounds like a day that needs to be forgotten or ignored. However, Maundy Thursday is a beautiful day to observe in the Holy Week. “Maundy’s” origin is Latin, from “Mandatum” which means “mandate”, “command”.

Maundy Thursday is cherished as the evening of the Last Supper. Dare I say, it is the most famous meal of human history. So many powerful moments from Jesus washing his disciples’ feet to him sharing the symbols of profound words and symbols of bread and wine that would reenacted millions of times by priests and pastors as Christians come together to observe and reflect on the holy sacrament of communion.

It is also the moment when Jesus says, “I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another” (John 13:34-35).

New command? It is always been powerful and odd to me the last words Jesus offers to his disciples. No master plan of evangelism, no condensed “gospel”, no formula, no real strategy, no long-winded pastoral summary beginning with the infamous words, “So in conclusion…”. But instead a new command which in honesty, isn’t really so new. It’s not as if Jesus actually invented love. Right?

It’s been a beautiful Holy week for me reading through John especially John 13-17 which as you may know is Jesus’ last evening with the disciples. We call it Maundy Thursday. I have also been reading NT Wright’s Justification. And I cannot help but be overwhelmed the love Jesus has for his disciples and for the world, “I pray for also those who will believe in me through their message, that all may them be one” … “I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them” (from the end of John 17).

I can devote a significant amount of attention to the idea of sacrificial love, how we show love, how we have perverted and how we must repent and abide in it the way Jesus did. But one, most people know quite a bit about it, and we know it’s hard. And two, being a person of the type of love that Jesus describes is part of a process, a relational process between the Father, and between our neighbors. What’s new is that it’s never been demonstrated to humanity before. That God would become the man Jesus, suffer for the sins and the evil of the world so that we can be forgiven and all creation reconciled. And then the best part, – the Resurrection – the grand demonstration of life conquering death, good triumphing over evil, God reclaiming creation, Love conquering all. And in his goodness, he sent us another, the Holy Spirit to guide and empower. Indeed, we have never seen love like this.

To some, today is April Fool’s but to many people like me, it’s Maundy Thursday.

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You can read more about its history from this Christianity Today piece by Elesha Coffman, “The Other Holy Day”.

Reflecting on "I Was Trafficked" Dance and Documentary at Monmouth University

As you may know, in recent years, I have become very interested in the issues of human trafficking, modern slavery, and human rights. In some ways, I feel like I’m still beginning to understand its complexity and in other ways – it’s pretty clear. Like many other Christians, I see these as huge moral violations and my heart remains broken. I wrestle constantly with numerous questions ranging from “Why aren’t more people discussing this?” to “What can I do to help?”. I’m not sure how to answer the first question graciously. It will just sound egotistical (like many bloggers ;-) To the second, the answer always feels like it’s never enough. We give money, attention, and intercession but like so many others, I wrestle.

That said, yesterday (Friday), I went to an event called, “I Was Trafficked” at Monmouth University. It featured choreographed dance and a clips from the documentaries “Very Young Girls” by Girls Mentoring and Education Services (available on Netflix) and “Demand” by Shared Hope International.

I hope to write more later but once again I was moved by what these girls go through. Some are abducted in the early teen years, brainwashed to fall in love with their pimps and forced to have sex with 10-20 men a day. I can barely wrap my mind around that kind of evil. My anger burns towards the pimps and the many men who create such a market.

Regarding the dance portion, I have to say, I found it to be beautiful. If I am being honest, dance is not a language of mine. I’m not good at it, I don’t watch Dancing with the Stars, but when it does cross my path, I do think, “Wow that is really cool.” Watching the dance routines with the moving music in between the documentary clips was powerful. My friend Migel’s wife, Janelle Milazzo Lao danced and choreographed much of the routine. She and the rest of the 5 member team were fantastic. Afterwards, Human Rights and Anti-Trafficking advocate, Debi Marulanda, took the stage and shared some of her experience of working with US governement agencies and non-profits in providing real help for young women rescued from forced prostitution.

There is no question that this is difficult subject matter. For those interested I encourage you to check out the aforementioned documentaries. In the meantime, I’m making it a goal to post more about this important topic.

Reflecting on the Ecclessia Gathering One Month Later – The Results Do Not Depend On Us – Post 3

One of the main themes that Dallas kept reminding us was in the simple statement, “The results do not depend on us”. It could have been my imagination but it seemed that every time he made an allusion to that, the room winced. I did because that line has a spiritual older cousin – the “Give it to God” cliche. Only it isn’t a cliche when Willard mentions it.

Shane Hipps said something similar regarding his preaching during one of his presentations at Poets, Prophets and Preachers in Grand Rapids last year. He preaches it, leaves the words and doesn’t think about them the rest of the afternoon. From the illustration he wanted to use (“Forget about it”), the awkward wording (“Don’t regret about it), the key line that he had been waiting all week to say (“Well there’s next week”). He said he is allowing himself to enjoy the freedom of releasing the message and allowing the Spirit and hearts to work.

I, of course, find it compelling to feel that way.

The results-problem is not a new thought for anyone. I know I have spent a lot of time throughout my 10 years of ministry dwelling on this very point. How do I release it without getting lazy? How do I care without caring so much? Was Jesus not disheartened when the crowds rejected His words or was the line “He who has ears, let him hear” really enough to release Him from the results?

I remember hearing an older, well-season pastor say to me, “If the people didn’t like Jesus’ sermons, I’m not going to feel bad if they don’t like mine”. I thought, “Well you should because I’ve heard you preach – the sermons suck.” But instead I said something like, “People don’t tell you negative feedback because they are afraid of you. So yeah technically, you are not focused on the results.” Then I ran because I knew I was much faster than he was. Kidding, kidding sorta …

There is a skeptical nature that I have towards Dallas’ words. We all know of a church that enables its pastors because he’s getting people down the aisle or he’s getting the new education wing built or whatever result justifies inappropriate behavior. Missional pastors who try to avoid these types of standards tend to focus on subjective matters like feedback that reflects actions of a transformed heart or the support of a others-centered project. These are arguably our altar calls and education wings. I’m not saying this is wrong, I am just looking in the mirror and finding the obstructions in my vision.

If I being completely honest, my cynicism can even be directed to a personal hero like Dallas. “It’s easy to say that you the results do not not depend on us when you are a sought after speaker and your publisher worries if the book doesn’t sell 50,000 copies. You worry about which speaking engagements to reject, I worry that “my audience” won’t come back next week.”

Further, this post can easily get into the unfair standards that pastors are often judged (as I just demonstrated three short paragraphs ago ;-). But this is precisely what Willard’s wisdom is offering to help. Realizing the results do not depend on us as pastors becomes an issue of submission and trust in the Holy Spirit. How do we prevent from becoming lazy and unattached? My best answer is as we live Spirit-led lives following Jesus, we live faithfully to the calling we have received. While this does not mean that one should allow themselves to be abused by the church, it does confirm that we are intentionally focused on living a life that prioritizes pleasing the Father over people.

So, as it is true for all of us in our various vocations, callings and walks of life – may the Lord judge us with justice and mercy as we walk humbly before Him.

Reflecting on the Ecclessia Gathering One Month Later – Post 2- Willard and Discipleship

As mentioned in post 1, like so many, I have a high regard for Dallas Willard. How an 74 year old man refreshes these words to a 33 year old is amazing to me. Yeah, he’s on a high pedestal for me (and many others) but it’s not without good reason. As I have been processing this throughout Lent, the themes of Discipleship and Evangelism have repeatedly come up in my church community, seminary to some extent, and in my own mind. Discipleship is a term I have always been endeared to. I am sure I have said numerous times, “We need disciples, not just converts.” which depending on the attitude towards Evangelism can also sound like, “We don’t need anymore new Christians until we fix the old bad ones.” Perhaps that is a bit overstated but you get the picture.

Once in a job interview, I was asked to define discipleship. I said something like, “Christian Discipleship is the Spirit-led, lifelong process of following and becoming more like Jesus to give glory to the Father.” I threw her off at Spirit-led. I think my next response was, “No I do not think anyone would accuse of being “charismatic” in worship expression sense.” The next question was, “What is your discipleship program in your youth ministry look like?” I went on to explain that incorporating the themes of worship, learning, serving and creating community in youth ministry is discipleship. She asked, “Yeah but what program do you use?”. By then I knew I wouldn’t get the job.

When I listen to Dallas talk, I regret that I am not able to recreate his holistic (overused term) approach of terms like discipleship and evangelism to the scope of the Christian life. What does my/our evangelism program look like? Given my aversion to “programs” (Evangelism Explosion!), I hope it’s the practice of living and proclaiming the gospel in our everyday life. Indeed, sometimes it’s overt and sometimes it isn’t. It’s interesting to examine Jesus in the Gospels – like John 6 is very overt (“I am the bread of life …”, many left) & John 8’s woman caught in adultery (“Go and leave your life of sin”) or even more, John 9’s healing of the blind man, (“Go and wash in the Pool of Siloam”).

Umm, where are the altar calls? Why aren’t Peter and John singing, “I Surrender All”? How about a pledge card so someone call follow up or something? Is that really “evangelism” – just going around helpin’ & healin’ people? Hmmm.

The question of “What is the Gospel and its lower case younger sibling, “What is the gospel” (maybe more on that another time) are questions and thoughts that have occupied a lot of thought and conversations, including my senior pastor. I continue to be grateful that we serve together as bring our own emphases to such important the conversations. One thing that was renewed to me at Ecclessia is that these conversations need to be more in the forefront of my ministry.

Part 3 is about not relying on ourselves and the work of the Holy Spirit. Should have it posted later this week. As always, thanks for reading.

Reflecting on the Ecclessia Gathering 1 Month Later – Post 1

A month ago, I attended the Ecclessia Gathering in Chevy Chase Maryland. While I had heard about it for a few years, it was my first time there and was grateful that a good friend made it possible for me to attend.
However, the timing was especially terrible for me. I had just returned from our Sr. High Winter Retreat (which went very well), was missing my family (who are fabulous) and was still recovering from my stolen Macbook and various other complications (which is life). I went for two reasons, as much as I missed my wife and kids, I needed a few days away, and two, Dallas Willard.

Like probably everyone at Ecclessia, The Divine Conspiracy was life-altering for me. What New Kind of Christian and Postmodern Youth Ministry was for me in my mid-twenties, Divine … was for me in my college years. I’d say now that God used New Kind and PYM to “save” me in ministry and that He used DC to save my understanding of Jesus and thus, my theology.

Divine Conspiracy came at an important time for me. It was further aided by the preaching of Pastor Mark at the Grace Church in Lynchburg, VA. He referenced Willard and Foster a lot and I am pretty sure the entire church was reading them as part of his influence. I remember leaving Grace naively thinking, “Yeah, churches read the same books as their pastors.” Uhh no, not so much. Now I think he should lead a conference on that – lol. Anyway, Willard is the man.

But he doesn’t act like the man and that’s why he’s the man. He’s a tender older gentleman in his mid-seventies, speaks lowly, slowly and sincerely. He doesn’t speak with a lot of persona but you tune in because the content of his message his anchored in wisdom. You also can’t help but listen to him and think, “His grandkids must love him.”

I’ve been looking over my notes as part of my Lenten reflections and am in the process of reflecting longer on the notes I take from conferences, school of course, and life in general and here are a few observations that have either remained in my mind or have been difficult to dismiss a month later.

In addition to Dallas, there was another pair of main presenters and they were the incredible couple, Bob & Mary Hopkins. They are considered to be the pioneers of church planting of the last 30 years in Europe. To quote from the conference program, their project Fresh Expressions “is an Anglican church-sanction movement that encourages new forms of church for a fast changing world …” creative expressions were very helpful for me. While it is true everywhere, being in the northeast, I think all of us need to reimagine different expressions of church-life.

Here’s a few things that I really appreciated:
“God so loved the world that He acted.” – Have we as a Church acted enough? When we have acted, how have we done in terms of the Kingdom? And probably my best question is “Have I acted goldy  Have we as a community acted God-like?”  Most of us know that this is only possible through the work of the Holy Spirit, which brings up another set of questions, among them simply, “Are we Spirit-led Christians or just people who call themselves Christian?”

I’ve also been trying to consider the “4 Spaces of Belonging”
Intimate space – accountability
Personal space – small groups (you thought I was going to write “personal one on one time with God didn’t you?)
Social space – mid-size community
Public space – celebration

I’m still working on these but find myself thinking a lot about them in relation to my current ministry.

Reading the culture and finding gospel connections. Know your gospel …

I hope to post on Willard’s and others’ thoughts later this week.  In the meantime, you can check out what other pastor-bloggers wrote here.